the silliness factor

ayano, zen + james @ alex's birthday, originally uploaded by julienpaul.

The greatest factor against living in Paris for me is the lack of Karaoke. It single handedly represents the unbalance between silliness and 'reality' that has weighed me down at times and made me want to cry.

Don't get me wrong - there have been some utterly delirious moments here in Paris, usually involving large amounts of wine and running through streets singing. But these moments are not as plentiful, nor as varied as in Australia: the fact that I had friends from different stages in my life, with different interests, meant that I could be called out on any given Friday night to do.. well, whatever. And often it would be silly, fun, and utterly different to my work life.

Paris, on the other hand... its funny how much more exposed you feel when you a) don't have your parents in the same country and b) no one knows you.

You arrive, having difficulties with the language. You have to build up a new version of yourself that can't rely on earlier conquests. When work batters you down you have so little to prop yourself back up with.

Paris is so much stress and so little silliness. It is definitely lacking in anime, karaoke, gigs, and all those little escapes from reality that were more easily available in Sydney.